Why Can't It Be Easy?!

Lifestyle changes are HARD!  I knew that sticking with a clean eating program would not be easy.  I was ready.  I was ready to deal with cravings.  I had my meals prepped.  I was ready!  

It started with a headache.

 It was expected.  All the materials that I read said that I doing a sugar detox causes headaches, fatigue & irritability.  So when these symptoms started I didn't think too much about it.  Little did I know what was just around the corner.

COVID

It's a word that I have come to hate!  When the world shut down due to covid, my world collapsed. But that is a story for another day.  

So here I am, working on eating clean & detoxing my body from sugar when we start getting text messages from my husband's family.  We were all together on Saturday to go swimming.  Most of us who were together are feeling sick in some way.  The wheels start turning & I start thinking, "This isn't just sugar detox."  

By the end of the day, my husband, teenage son & I have all tested positive for covid.  This has been my greatest fear for the last year and a half.  The crazy thing is though, I not scared any more.  I am relieved.  I realize I am exhausted from living in fear of this thing.  I am also so ANNOYED!!  I finally have the guts to take a big leap & start changing my lifestyle, and now this curve ball!

My diet plan is out the window.  I have little appetite & feeling a bit nauseous.  So now all the healthy vegetables & protein I'm supposed to be eating makes me sick just thinking about it.  

I don't know why, but life can just never be easy.  I knew it was going to be hard, but now I'm looking at sticking with the program & I'm thinking, "THIS IS IMPOSSIBLE!"

I so badly want a HUGE Dr. Pepper!!!  I want comfort food.  I want yummy chocolate chip cookies.  I want cheese.  I want ranch dressing.  I want a big juicy hamburger & fries.  

I'm a tiny bit grateful for the nausea, because for now it's all that has kept me from jumping off the face first into all my favorite, but not good for me foods.

So far I've mostly stuck with it.  I am supposes to eat every 2-3 hours.  NOT happening!  I will throw up.  I did eat ramen noodles which is not on the plan, but I just needed something bland.  

I honestly don't know how this week is going to end.  I'm too tired for will power.  I'm too nauseous for the "healthy" stuff so where does that leave me?