Day 1...again

 Today is the day...

that I am going to change my life!

that I am going to lose weight.

that I am going to be healthy.

that I am going to be a better me.

I have said these words to myself so many times in my life time.  It starts out so well.  I start the new diet, the new exercise program, the goal to be a better person, but overtime I get tired and frustrated AND so I quit.

Yep, I'm a quitter.  

Even as I type these words, I wonder if this blog/journal of my journey will actually last more than a few days.  I guess time will only tell.

But today I start a new journey.  This is the journey that will hopefully lead me to a better, healthier, stronger me.

Twenty-six years ago I was a young skinny college student.  I was happy & healthy.  I had just met the love of my life.  Life was good.  

Actually my life is still good.  I married the love of my life.  We celebrated our 25th anniversary this year.  We have 4 amazing children & the cutest grand baby!!! We have built an amazing life & I can't imagine not having anyone else by my side. I love my life, but I don't love the body that I live in.

I have not been kind to my body.  I am ashamed of it.  When someone wants a photo of me, I hide in the back.  Unfortunately, my kids growing up means I am now the shortest person and therefore am pushed to the front of family photos.  I HATE seeing myself front & center of all these photos.  Ugghh!!!

I have tried so many diets & exercise programs over the years.  I have spent $$$ on gym memberships, weight loss challenges, exercise equipment, workout videos and workout clothes.  Eventually I quit them all.  The excuses are numerous.  I don't have time. It's too hard.  I'm too busy.  I don't have any support.  It isn't working.....blah blah blah blah.

So here I am starting over again.  I'm staring down the black hole known as DAY 1!!  

Is it going to be different this time?  

I don't know.  But I HOPE it will be.

I'm tracking this journey for no one but myself.  I don't even know if I will publish this blog.  But I do know that I need to do this.  I need to see where I've been so I can also see where I'm going.